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This post is dedicated to Brian Thomas Ellsworth
(Sorry I am using the blog as my journal today)

6 years ago this Saturday, February 28th, my younger and only brother was killed in a car accident. He was 14 years old and only a freshman in High School. He was my best friend and my role model. He was the most perfect person I knew. He was such an example to me... and continues to be throughout my life. I now live my life for him, and strive to live in the way he would if he was here. He was my biggest fan and was always so proud of me. He taught me the true meaning of unconditional love.

That night of the 28th has forever changed my life. From that night forward, I have had no doubt in my mind that the gospel is true. I am so thankful to have the knowledge of the after life and the opportunity to see him again. I know Brian was meant to have a short life here on Earth so he could return to our Heavenly Father to serve his mission up above. Even though I have healed from this tragedy, doesn't mean I have forgotten Brian. His spirit still lives and will always live. I feel his presence with me very often and know he is watching me closely.

6 years. Wow. Sometimes it seems like it has been a lifetime since I last saw him. Other times it feels like it was just yesterday that I said goodbye to him 20 minutes before the accident.

Every year my family lights luminaries and releases balloons at the crash site as a celebration of his life, as well as the other two teens that were killed in the accident. This will be my first year that I will not be there with my family.

However, I am very lucky that I have such a wonderful husband who so kindly has taken the role of being my comforter during rough times. He never got to meet Brian, but still cares so much about him.
Family, I wish I was there with you. But please know I will be lighting luminaries for Brian as well on Saturday.


Rebecca aka brian's mom said...

This is beautiful what you wrote Steph. It's 14 minutes until the sixth anniversary. I miss him so much, don't you? Sometimes like tonight, I just can't stand the pain. But your sweet thoughts about your awesome brother really help...
love you steph.

Michael & Leslie McCabe said...

He changed my life too. I think about him often and know that he is so impressed with how your family has taken the biggest tragedy of your lives and turned it around to bless the lives of others. Your family touches hearts on both sides on the veil. I will never forget Brian. I have tears in my eyes just thinking of his sweet face.